Jocelyn's thoughts on Chris

I hope Jocelyn won't mind that I copied her words to put here:

Loneliness is a thing, I guess what we have all had sometimes, and I can remember that there were moments when I would complain about being lonely. I live in Europe, and I do sometimes feel very far away from you all (even though it has been my wish to live here, and there is no doubt that I want to live here) I remember telling Chris about my loneliness, and he told me, look Jocelyn, you really are blessed with a beautiful family, you have kids, a partner, and you have everything going for you. Don't complain, live!! Of course I knew that what he was saying was true. I am blessed. If there ever was a person who could say truthfully that he or she was lonely it would have been Chris. It must have been so for him sometimes, I guess. But, what I loved about him is that even though he didn't have the family or love that he longed for, he had the ability to make things happen for himself so that his life was good, and he could feel happy about his life. He didn't complain, he looked for the things that made him happy. Life is too precious. I am grateful to Chris for showing me that.

Well, here is his letter in which he tells about himself. love, Jocelyn

[Chris' email to Jocelyn]

Thijman plays a cello WOW!!!
When U come to U.S. (and I'm just assuming you'll bring the children $$$ an issue) if Thijman brings his instrument we can sing a couple of songs together, as I've much improved my electric guitar playing over these 8 or 9 years practicing one. I find singing and playing (even just to yourself- well I'm sure other tenants in my apartment lean an ear to their window to listen sometimes, and have had a comment or two from them on occasion) is so much fun and fulfilling therapy (almost) it can just about cure any down or feelings you are having (loneliness too, which everyone experiences I believe in life and I'm almost an authority on the subject) - so you pick a couple of songs mentioning those things and it's almost like exorcism when you sing them ( into a microphone, of course for better affect- I have one always set up in my living room) Oh yeah, my art functions that way too, but it seems now I'm almost split in half with art and music, whereas before it was all artwork.

Your daughter sounds delightful also and wish with all my heart her well being throughout her whole glorious life in this topsy turvy world we live in. creative And clever- those are nice traits, for sure.

My artwork or work on windows (sometimes painting flowers or birds and such on pet stores or salons, really a wide range of store types) is going so well really and gaining popularity all the time. I talk to people all the time who are curious ,on the streets, when I'm drawing and painting and I'm just gushing as you can imagine when they exclaim "You're so talented- we love them".

It gives them a break from hectic city life and the dirt and grime and allows them to enjoy a little beauty and charm , even if only for a short moment or two. That's how I look at my purpose in life. And since I have a ball doing it- I don't even think of it as job- and so will continue to till I guess I can't. I could do more concerning my own "personal " artwork at home- and should throw out my TV and kick myself in the ass and DO IT!!!!

Let me stop here- send me your PH. NO. and from there things can happen. O.K.?

Love you and your family jewels you have there with you-
Chaio CHRISTIAN